*Manamaraya

My LiveJournal
Painted Bees


(I take Commissions! Just send me a note or an email. Prices are always debatable.)


I leave for thailand TOOONIGHT chumps!
hoolyshit I'm so excited! 8D
It hasn't even full hit me yet that I'm actually going to be across the ocean this time tomorrow.
So I'm bringing a camera and a laptop--I'll try to keep my live journal updated with pictures and videos highlighting my entire trip.

I'll be gone for about a month--and I get to celebrate my birthday there : D how badass.

Yesterday while I was working at my humble little comic store--my mom, Guy, ~Sukee and patrick all came in to give me a surprise visit and lavish me with new clothes as a birthday gift. Which is awesome--because I needed some warm clothing pretty desperately.

So at 9:00 pm tonight, I'll be headed off to finally meet Sean's wonderful folks--with a nice, not inappropriate wardrobe 8D

Thanks Mom and Guy <3

Anyhow, I'm off! Enjoy your month, chumps! I expect lots of gift art upon my return >:U _{kidding, kidding.}
<3!



+ =
Come and show some support!
-------------------------------------------
_{**Pixel Mae and Tom up there is work of ~mirrew :]}

My LiveJournal
Painted Bees


(I take Commissions! Just send me a note or an email. Prices are always debatable.)


two excellent artists. I still can't believe Hughes is actually on DA. His work is a huge source of inspiration for me :]How wonderful!




enjoy ;D



+ =
Come and show some support!
-------------------------------------------
_{**Pixel Mae and Tom up there is work of ~mirrew :]}

My LiveJournal
Painted Bees


(I take Commissions! Just send me a note or an email. Prices are always debatable.)


I'm about to turn 20.
That's two decades.
Two decades--when you're barely two decades old--seems like a long time. It seems old.
Relative to the time of everything else on this planet--two decades are so insignificant to the point that there's not even a spot for you on the scale. I haven't achieved anything I wanted to achieve. Well, I attended artschool--but not at the school of my initial choice. I didn't even apply to it. I didn't even get in to the program I've wanted to get into my entire life. Instead now, I'm headed into a painting major--praying it means I actually get to paint stuff.

I'm not living in Vancouver, I'm not attending Emily Carr, I'm not headed into an illustration major, I'm not even banging a sexy photography professor. But who cares--those aren't my dreams anymore.
I haven't published anything, I haven't even gotten 50% through anything I had wished to eventually publish. I feel stunted, immature, irresponsible and unworldly for my age. I rely on other people to get me where I want to go, where I want to be.

I'm faced with issues I never wished to face, never needed to face--but chose to face. Fears, phobias, irrational thoughts--that are impossible to defeat--but this thing called love--drives us to face things we as individuals might have never been meant to face. To deal with things that really--we cannot deal with. But I love and that what's important. Something as insane as that--is what anchors my sanity on the subject.

I've just started taking measures towards straightening out my ADD. Why? Because it's finally gotten to a point where I will fail at life if I continue pretending it's no big deal. I started reading up on it--in depth--and have learned that it has a lot more to do with my behavior that I thought. One factor that's been holding me back immensely. ADD--is quite possibly one of the most underestimated psychological drawbacks that has ever exsisted. And I'm just learning that.

I hate growing up. I hate having responsibility over myself and my actions. But that's an "awww princess" deal, isn't it.
I actually caught myself saying today, "Nobody else can really understand." understand me--? what, am I 13 again?


I'll be in Thailand for my birthday.

I'm about to turn 20 but--
I think there's been a mistake.



+ =
Come and show some support!
-------------------------------------------
_{**Pixel Mae and Tom up there is work of ~mirrew :]}

My LiveJournal
Painted Bees


(I take Commissions! Just send me a note or an email. Prices are always debatable.)


All right, subscribed again!
...but why? :U haha the best thing about the sub was being able to see everything in the message center. But it's awwwwight.

Anyways, sitting in a restaurant somewhere, Sean and I heard a song play--and we both agreed it was very thomas-esque.
And then we agreed that we fail at keeping updated with the Nevers comic. We also agreed it was because we didn't have a quick, clean, efficient style to work with--and that we oughtta do a series of speed collaborations in order to find the perfect style at last.
So maaaybe--just maybe, you'll be seeing some more Nevers art coming up soon.

Allowing a month long break for when we leave to THAILAND on the 24!
Wooyay! Seven more daaaaaays! Which means only 4 more days of work, etc 8D
I'm all floaty and excited for that :]



+ =
Come and show some support!
-------------------------------------------
_{**Pixel Mae and Tom up there is work of ~mirrew :]}

Thanks for the supportive comments on my previous journal, guys <3

Everything is back to being fine at home--Sean came to pick me up from work the following night of that last journal entry with puppy dog eyes, unnecessary apologies, and a lot of comfort. We talked about things that had been bothering me--and he gave me reassurance that, yeesss--he was being genuine, and that it hurt him to think I had such doubts against it.
I came home that night to a note he left open on photoshop (you know you're an artist couple when...) in an apologetic tone saying he wanted the old Mandy back.

He has his old Mandy back.

There was just--a number of things that set me off and I had kind of walled up on him. For 24 hours, I had barely said a word to him. When he tried to offer snuggles and kisses, it was not unlike trying to hug and kiss a lifeless doll since my response had been minimal.
He had this experience with a girl before me--who had suddenly distanced herself from him before moving away and leaving him entirely. This was a bit of an unpleasant de-ja-vu for him--and I feel pretty bad about it.

I'm not one for with-held communication--in fact, I'm very against it--but there are some things that I feel--sometimes--that are not fair to bring up. Certain morale conflicts that arise, and have been dealt with fairly. To bring them up again--is unfair. And that's kind of what had set me off. I had this issue--that I couldn't talk about really--because it was unfair.
Hence the silence.
But that was obviously--a bad way to go about it.

Anyways, no relationship is perfect. Each one has it's rocks. Ours certainly does. But of course, the good outweighs the bad tenfold. And honestly, that last little episode, was the closest thing to a "major fight" we've had. Haha, no yelling, no insults, just silence--and then make-up sex. Movies are right about that, you know. Make-up sex is pretty excellent.

So after a harsh 24 hours, every thing's back to normal. And for the sake of my poor love's sanity, I'm not going to with hold any issues with him--even if they don't make sense, or if they seem unfair. Talking about it is always better then keeping it in. No matter what.

I don't normally type about this kind of thing in a journal. Much less an online journal....a deviantart journal. But oh well. Indulge on the personal relationship dramas of someone who's relationship isn't actually all that dramatic in the negative sense.

I love Sean to bits and pieces. I think I love him so much--that it drives me to confusion D; I've never loved a person like this!
As my last year's Art and Design Now professor^{Mr. Waddell} would say, "I love this love!" ...oh lol, Mr. Waddell.


_{Anyways, on another note: Guys, pick up a copy of Blankets by Craig Thompson. It's a 600 page long graphic novel that's a biography of this guys life from childhood to post-high school graduation. It's amaaazing. I mean it. Srsly love this guy.}

I like version 6. No one else does--but I do. It just takes a little getting use to.

I also feel like shit. I'm not going home after work today--I need space or fresh air or...something. I just don't want to be here right now.
I love this new house--but ever since we moved here, I've felt distanced--not quite right. And other things at home have been feeling different too. Sean's been different--or maybe it's just me. But everything he says--doesn't feel genuine lately--unless he's upset with me. Frustration's genuine. But I'm frustrating so I'm not blaming him. But nice things said--feel a little empty for some reason.
But I don't want to come home after work today.
I think I'll buy a copy of "Blankets" and read downtown until I feel like coming back.

God, I don't feel well at all.

Finally cashed in my check, bought a subscription (that will be in effect eventually...paypal D; ), topped up my phone, ate a delicious cinnamon bun, and I feel good to have cash again 8D Until I have to give up over 700 of it to bills again. *le sigh~*

anyways, thanks for the wonderful comments on my latest piece guys. I always feel uncomfortable posting traditional pieces in my gallery *hence the amazing lack of them*--and the encouragement is quite warming.

My brother is up for the day--finally, I'll get to take him around calgary 8D If I can wake him up...
I still gotta take pictures of my awesome new home. It's awesome.

okay, that's all

Take care gaise 8D

nabbed from step sister ~Sukee
[] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[] I have many scars.
[] I tan easily
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[] I have a tattoo.
[] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[] I wear glasses.
[] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[] I have more than 2 piercing.
[] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[x] I have freckles.
[] I hate my dad.
[] I hate my mom.
[x] I have brothers.
[x] I have sisters.
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[] I've run away from home. (when I was like...4)
[] I've been kicked out of the house.
[] My biological parents are together.
[] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[] I've had children.
[] I've lost a child.
[x] I'm in school.
[x] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework. (college--Highschool was a totally different story 8D; )
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.(because of school trips)
[x] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.(just barely)
[] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[] I've stolen something from my job.
[] I've been fired.
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something.(all the time :3)
[] I've had my pants rip in public.
[] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[] I've broken a bone.
[] I've had my tonsils removed.
[] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox
[] I was born in a different country.
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada.(I live there lol)
[] I've been to Mexico.
[] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[] I've been to Japan.
[] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[] I've been to Europe.
[] I've been to Africa.
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts. (he threw up afterward and I won a free slushie for it!)
[] I've been to a casino.
[] I've been skydiving.
[x] I've gone skinny dipping.
[] I've played spin the bottle.
[x] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[] I've crashed a car.
[x] I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[x] I've seen the Northern lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[] I've been snowboarding.
[] I'm single.
[x] I'm in a relationship.
[] I'm engaged.
[] I'm married.
[] I've gone on a blind date.
[] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[] I have a fear of abandonment.
[] I've gotten divorced.
[] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.
[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.(ya ya....I'm guilty)
[x] I'm bi. (just another word for open minded, srsly.)
[] I'm gay.
[x] I've had sex.
[] I've had phone sex.
[x] I've cybered.(actually, depends what constitutes as *cybering*--taking it seriously? I have a hard time doing that :'D )
[x] I've had sex in public.
[] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.(yay random hugs!)
[x] I have kissed a stranger
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.(just to go outside lol)
[] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.(wore a skirt and wrote the answers on my thigh 8D)
[] I've run a red light.
[] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[] I've been in a fist fight.
[] I've been arrested.
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[] I regularly drink.
[] I've passed out from drinking.
[] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[] I've smoked weed.
[] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[] I've eaten shrooms.
[] I've popped E.
[] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[] I've done hard drugs.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[] I take anti-depressants.
[] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I've woken up crying.
[] I'm afraid of dying.
[] I hate funerals.(only been to one...don't want to go to any more)
[] I've seen someone dying.
[] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.(not that I know of)
[] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[] I've planned my own suicide.
[] I've attempted suicide.
[] I've written a eulogy for myself.
[] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[x] I own a plushie of my fave character from anything.(Turu? haha)
[] I own a cosplay outfit.
[x] I know what cosplay means.
[] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[] I own something from Hot Topic.
[] I own something from Pac Sun.
[] I collect comic books.
[] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay.
[] I own something from Abercrombie.
[x] I can sing well. (er--decently?)
[] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[] I watch the news.
[x] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[] I sing in the shower.
[x] I am a morning person.
[] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[] I'm a snob about grammar.
[] I am a sports fanatic.(only football)
[] I twirl my hair.(habit xD)
[] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[] I love being neat.
[] I love Spam.
[] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
[] I bake well.
[] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
[x] I've worn pajamas to school.
[] I like Martha Stewart.
[] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I am in love with love.(all you need is love!)
[] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[] I eat fast food weekly.
[] I believe in ghosts.
[] I am online 24/7, even as an away message. (not anymore D8 )
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[] I love white chocolate. (toooo sweet D
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[] I'm good at remembering faces.
[] I'm good at remembering names.
[] I'm good at remembering dates.
[] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[] I loath labels.
[x] I like action movies.
[] I like horror movies.
[] I like chick flicks.
[x] I know the most random facts about things people have never heard of before.
[] I can't spell.
[x] I treasure my friends.
[] I think of others before myself. (kinda wished I did D; )
[x] All of those are answered honestly.

How says:
I still think it'd be a good opportunity to show off your diverse skills not just
How says:
'omgwtfxorz finished works'
Mandy says:
that's what scraps are for 8D on both my website and DA
How says:
yeah but nobdoy watches scraps! D:
Mandy says:
their loss 8D!
How says:
wellll you don't exactly /advertise/
Mandy says:
should I post a journal?
How says:
yeah



There, I advertised >:U


...Shamefully D'; forgive me guys, peer pressure. You understand.


But seriously. There's nothing new or exciting in there. I just needed to appease the ~MissusHow ..she threatened to rape me.

My subscription ran out D: <
Ah, I was so spoiled with being able to see thumbnails and comments in my message center--and roaming the site AD free.

Fear not! I'm not begging for a gift subscription--I'll have cash at the end of the month 8D I'll just buy a new one.

I was just caught by surprise when I checked my message center and everything went lame and inconvenient. : < I has not time to sift through 30 deviations by clicking on titles! "What the fuck is this shit!?"

Haha, okay--shock's worn off.

Hope everyone's well 8D
Talk to yous later!

My LiveJournal



(I take Commissions! Just send me a note or an email. Prices are always debatable.)
-----------------------------

wow. I hate registering courses D: < such a pain in the ass when everything you want to get into is CLOSED already.

But I ended up with something I'm okay with 8D considering I'm not even in my degree of choice...

So my first semester looks like this:
Monday, I have painting 213
Tuesday, I have painting 222--During lunch, I have English
Wednesday, I have ACAD 200 (professional Practices for Artist--wat?)
Oh cool, I have thursdays free 8D
Friday I have drawing 212 and at lunch, I have another english class.

So, that's five classes for semester one...onto semester two:

Monday, I have painting 316 _{(ACAD chums--are you really allowed to take 300 lvl courses in second year? It wouldn't let me take a 300 lvl drawing--but it would let me take a 300lvl painting? I hope this isn't unusual 8D;; )} During lunch, I have Art History.
Tuesday, I have Drawing 207
Wednesday, I have Animation 210
Thursday, I have just art history. Really short day 8D
Fridays, I have painting 214.

Gee golly, I wonder what major I'm trying to get into now.


Hopefully, nothing here looks wrong to the third and fourth years who read my journal. If anything does make you think, "wtf? she can't do that!" please tell me. My uh... "academic adviser" wasn't very advising.

So anways, I figure if I'm not going into VC, I'll just have fun--and pick courses that look like something I could get use in taking. Like one of those drawing courses--is an anatomy class. I can remember if the Urban landscape class was the other drawing class--or if it was the 300 lvl one that I wanted--but wasn't allowed to due to class restriction (?) but if it is--then I'll take it next year--since it sounds good too 8D

And then, all those painting classes?
I like painting :< So I might as well major in it 8D

But most of all, I am pumped for that animation class. Even though I'm sure it's going to be really simple "make the ball bounce" type stuff--I get to learn something about animating! Which is bad ass--cause I'd love to animate :9!

Anyways. Yes. My scheduel. Mostly posted here for me. Because if I didn't type this journal, I would have thought that I had class Thursdays until the first thursday of school.
So that's kinda cool.


Anyways, I'm off. See ya chumps! <3

Joint account:

Come and show some support!
-------------------------------------------
_{**Pixel Mae and Tom up there is work of ~mirrew :]}

My LiveJournal



(I take Commissions! Just send me a note or an email. Prices are always debatable.)
-----------------------------

RULES:
1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5.Put this on your journal.

1.If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
You Never Wash Up After Yourself-Radiohead
(ffs, take a shower.)

2.How would you describe yourself?
The Evil Power-Nobuo Uematsu
(well, pretty self explanatory, I think.)

3.What do you like in a girl?
Isolation-Front Mission 3 ost
(I never want to see that bitch >:U )

4.How do you feel today?
21st century living-Matthew Good
(sure, why not."

5.What is your life's purpose?
ATTENTION, PLEASE-Beat crusaders
(to receive your attention. 8U)

6.What is your motto?
Open Treasure Box-Koji Kondo
(DAN NAN NA NAAAAAAAAA fuck yeah, that's my motto.)

7.What do your friends think of you?
You've got the Touch-Transformers: The Movie
(If you're a true friend of mine, you'll understand how awesomely accurate this is 8D *pervy eyebrow wiggle*)

8.What do you think of your parents?
Renegades of Funk-Rage Against the Machine
('cause they're BADASS.)

9.What do you think about very often?
Flight-Breath of Fire 3 ost
(I dream about it all the time too 8D <3 )

10.What is 2 + 2?
Destruction-Yoshino Aoki
(beware D; That seemingly simple equation has the power to take down governments!)

11.What do you think of your best friend?
No communication, No love-Hotel Costes
(we actually don't talk anymore *due to eventual distancing* D; no love.)

12.What do you think of the person you like?
Jigga 'Nigga What'-Various artist
(Nigga whaaaat? 8D haha right on.)

13.What is your life story?
Something completely different-unknown artist
(not back to your regular programmed broadcasting >:U)

14.What do you want to be when you grow up?
Purple Funky Monkey-ministry of sound breaks
(fuck yeah 8D)

15.What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Kiss me-six pence none the richer
( = 3~<33

16.What will you dance to at your wedding?
The dissapointed-Beat Crusaders
(because that's what my mother will secretly be when I marry an asian man. *kidding, kidding!*)

17.What will they play at your funeral?
GET UP, GET UP!-Beat crusaders
(fuck you, leave me alone--I'm dead. Get over it.)

18.What is your hobby/interest?
Back to Sleep-Xenogears Ost
(sleep is nice...)

19.What is your biggest fear?
Confrontation-Nobuo Uematsu
(but not really D; )

20.What is your biggest secret?
The other truth-Legend of Mana OST
(You'll never know 8D)

21.What do you think of your friends?
Stop Whispering-Radiohead
(I can hear you, you know. :< )

22.What will you post this as?
Breakthrough-Einhander OST



God, Sean's playlist has a ton of random junk on it 8D I had to skip through some because they were in like--chinese lettering that I couldn't reproduce or translate.

Btw, I nabbed that from FREAKING EVERYONE D;
But fluffy in particular.


Okay, that's all. Ciao!

Joint account:

Come and show some support!
-------------------------------------------
_{**Pixel Mae and Tom up there is work of ~mirrew :]}

My LiveJournal



(I take Commissions! Just send me a note or an email. Prices are always debatable.)
-----------------------------

I talked to a lady at ACAD about doing part time schooling to get my academic courses out of the way so that if I get into VC next year, I won't have to worry about them.
Simply put, she said I was not allowed.
Apperently VC students have all courses specific to VC majors that fine art majors are not allowed to take. This means they have an exclusive english course, and and exclusive art history course.

What?
Come on. I can under stand serperate drawing courses and the like--but uh. Last time I check, art history was art history--and that history doesn't change depending on your major. Same goes with English.
That fact, topped with the "well, aren't you a failure" tone of voice the lady had for me the entire time, left me feeling incredibly sour and completely turned off wanting to even try a second time for VC. Not worth it.
I'm not going to blow my cash on a potentially useless year of school because VC has 100% exclusive courses. Am I unreasonable to think that's ridiculous? But oh well, works for them--and it's still a great school. I've just got a very sour taste in my mouth after this afternoon's meeting.
I'm just going to continue on with a painting major in the end. My motivation for VC has been destroyed completely.

Like Sean said to me, there's more than one road to my destination. So--I'll just take one of those roads instead.

I hope Chris Cran teaches second year painting class as well. He was my favorite.


Oh, PS gaise--don't get too worked up over my last journal entry--it's my own thoughts, what I think--and I mention that in the journal :9 I'm not about to shit on anyone else's opinions either--since for the most part, they all pretty good points. Some conflict themselves, and others I don't fully agree with myself. But for the most part, I'm impressed with what I've read from you guys on the topic here.
I knew I would be--hence why I posted the journal in the first place :]

Joint account:

Come and show some support!
-------------------------------------------
_{**Pixel Mae and Tom up there is work of ~mirrew :]}

My LiveJournal



(I take Commissions! Just send me a note or an email. Prices are always debatable.)
-----------------------------

Ohai there!
Hope you're all well :] <3

Today, I want to talk about the term "Artist".
You see, I'm one of the losers that hangs around the DA forums, and actually leaves input on threads on a regular basis.
I always see threads asking "what's makes someone an 'artist'?"

It's a decent question--but too many people think to answer it similarly to "what's art?".
They're not the same question. At all :9
Art is subjective. I don't think the term Artist is at all nearly subjective as the term art.

An artist is Someone who does art as a professional living.

Does that not make common sense?

It's like how someone who does science for a professional living is called a scientist, someone who works with psychology for a professional living is called a psychologist, someone who does dentistry for a professional living is called a dentist, someone who studies geology for professional living is called a geologist, etc, etc.
I really...don't think the term "artist" is any kind of special exception there. :'D it's not a romantic word. It's just a professional title like anything else attaining to a study, ending in "ist".
Nothing to do with, "oooh, are you passionate? Do you think you're an artist? You must first understand what art is before you can be called an artist."
Naw, it's just a title to a particular career. Simple as that. Want to do art for a living? You are an aspiring artist. Going to art school? You are a studying artist. Draw for fun with no intention on doing it for a living? You draw as a hobby.
Making a solid living and paying your bill primarily via the money you make off doing artwork? You are an artist.

Nothing romantic, deep, or special, really.

Joint account:

Come and show some support!
-------------------------------------------
_{**Pixel Mae and Tom up there is work of ~mirrew :]}

My LiveJournal



(I take Commissions! Just send me a note or an email. Prices are always debatable.)
-----------------------------

Which is highly unlikely. But man, does she ever look like one!
I'm talking about my beloved stray, Oliver of course. One of these days, I'll get a decent, up to date photo of her, but if you don't know the cat I'm talking about, this is her a day after I scooped her off the freezing, sleet-coated streets: [link]
I wished I had a picture of her back--so that you could see her spotted coat better. I'd like to find out for certain what breed she may actually be--or if she's just an adorable mutt.
But I've heard a spotted coat on a cat is the result of select breeding.
For a while, I was convinced she was a Bengal--but seeing as she has some patched of cream on her stomach, it's a bit unlikely. Apparently, Bengals have spots that extend to their underbellies.
It's unlikley that I managed to find a cat from a breed as rare as the Mau discarded on the street, but the more I look at pictures of Bronze Maus--such as this one: [link] the more I am convinced.

...I should just take her to a vet and ask them 8D; anyone know anything advanced about cats and cat breeds? I could definitely use a more educated opinion.

Joint account:

Come and show some support!
-------------------------------------------
_{**Pixel Mae and Tom up there is work of ~mirrew :]}

My LiveJournal



(I take Commissions! Just send me a note or an email. Prices are always debatable.)
-----------------------------

Any one remember that game? XD
Haha neither did I--until yesterday D8!
Then I was thinking, "ohai! I should ttly start playing that again, lyk..."
And so I did. Starting completely from scratch because the last time I played it was so long ago, and on a private server--my old character probably doesn't even exist anymore 8D;

So yeah, playing on iro, who else still plays--on the choas server?
Give me a shout--my name on there is Manamaraya 8D I'm puny and weak, but it's fun 8D

I feel like an extreme geek right now, but who cares.

Ciao!

Joint account:

Come and show some support!
-------------------------------------------
_{**Pixel Mae and Tom up there is work of ~mirrew :]}

My LiveJournal



(I take Commissions! Just send me a note or an email. Prices are always debatable.)
-----------------------------

Went to go see The Hives play at the University last night :9
It was a really good performance--they're an entertaining band to watch and hear live on stage.
But holyshit--I've never seen so many stoners gathered in one place. Perhaps it would have been fine had it been an out door concert--but it kinda wasn't. Haha the smell of pot was so thick and strong, I won't be able to smell properly for days to come. I woke up this morning, still smelling the strong scent of pot--but that was purely the result of my nose being completely fried and disabled from last night.
I'm a bit phobic of drugs--so it was a bit stressful for me when everyone within my field of view was smoking up. And then I was feeling kinda guilty the entire concert because I really didn't want to be any kind of kill joy. So I tried not to mention anything or complain at all.

It was fun--good music, good friends, I definitely appreciate being invited to tag along--but in honesty, I don't think I'd go to any other similar concerts after that one.
I'll stick to attending concerts in small revenues such as bars and stuff. My favorite artist tend to play in nothing but small revenues anyways. It's much more personal :]
A lot less phobic stress and bad feelings.

: < I was raised as too much of a goody two-shoes.

Joint account:

Come and show some support!
-------------------------------------------
_{**Pixel Mae and Tom up there is work of ~mirrew :]}

My LiveJournal



(I take Commissions! Just send me a note or an email. Prices are always debatable.)
-----------------------------

Thanks for the support on my last journal guys. I really appreciate it.
Chin up and regardless of the lack of credibility and prestige I might have in consequence to not having an education in Visual Communication, it hasn't stopped many people in the past from doing great things.

...well, except for maybe Hitler. But I'm sure he thought he was doing great things...just happened to be in a totally wrong direction...
Yeah, I'll make sure not to hop on that path 8D
DON'T WORRY, JEWS. YOU'RE OKAY.

Anyways, yeah, thanks for the support. In return, I won't become a genocidal maniac of any sort. Promise <3

ANYWAYS.

a thing:

RULES:
1) Answer the questions below.
2) Take each answer and type it into dA search box.
3) Take a deviation from the first page of results (may use ' popular' or 'newest' ) and post thumb (for subscribers) or link (non-subscribers).
4) You can't copy the persons answers who posted this before you.
5) Please tell the artist that you featured them. It's only fair and you would want to know if it was your art that was featured.


1. The age I will be on my next birthday: 20




2. A place I'd like to travel: Thailand



3. My favorite place: Cortes Island



4. My favorite object: computer and tablet <3



5. My favorite food: Maraschino cherries



6. My favorite animal: Merlin



7. My favorite color: green



8. The town in which I live: Calgary



9. Name of past pet: Oliver



10. A dream come true: Getting a name as an illustrator



11. My nickname/screenname: Manamaraya



12. My middle name: Therese



13. My favorite Smell: Lilacs



14. Bad habit of mine: nail biting



15. My first job: movie store



16. Favourite Movie: Pianist



17. What are you doing right now?: Drawing



18. Whats The Weather Like?: rainy



19. Favourite Sport: eating


20. Favourite Band: David Usher



You know--I'm reaaaally certain I've done this before...

...
Ohwell, you get to see it again then :'D <3

Joint account:

Come and show some support!
-------------------------------------------
_{**Pixel Mae and Tom up there is work of ~mirrew :]}

My LiveJournal



(I take Commissions! Just send me a note or an email. Prices are always debatable.)
-----------------------------

I didn't get into the VC program.
I can't afford to wait a year and reapply.
So, it's fine art with me.

I can't tell you how much of a bummer this is for me. Ha ha, this was kinda, really important to me. The fact that I'm being denied the amazing education that the VC department has to offer has had me bawling my face off all day.

I mean, I've had dreams of doing illustration and shit since like--the third grade. And these guys were pretty much like, "no, sry. Not good enough."
I went to school to help prove to myself I was good enough. :'D Kinda counter-productive. So--I feel like a pretty epic failure right now. A total mess.

But I'll pick myself up tomorrow and just continue doing what I'm doing. It's not the end of the world--though it feels pretty close at the moment.
I'm just being dramatic.

ha ha, I'll live :']

Joint account:

Come and show some support!
-------------------------------------------
_{**Pixel Mae and Tom up there is work of ~mirrew :]}

My LiveJournal



(I take Commissions! Just send me a note or an email. Prices are always debatable.)
-----------------------------

fuuuuuuck
I want to know SO bad if I got into the VC program. Everyone else apperently got their letters of acceptance. I--have not D:
My guess is because they've sent it to Brooks--which is about two hours away from calgary. So my parents will know before I do.

But man, it's killing me. I'm having nightmares about being declined.
This is so important to me, it makes me sick : <

ACAD chums who applied for VC, did you all get in? :]

Joint account:

Come and show some support!
-------------------------------------------
_{**Pixel Mae and Tom up there is work of ~mirrew :]}